I need you now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor. Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore. And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time. Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now. Said I wouldnt come, but I lost all control and I need you now. And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

#%$&#%

secret #3

ILOVEYOU.

(So, that was hard for me to say. I hope I said it right.)

what if

yeah baby, how about this?

GODDAMN.

I slept three hours this night and I'm wondering if it was worth it. There are so much feelings running trough my head, my heart. Yesterday you were begging me to come over and my mind said yes but my heart said no. For the first time in my life I listened to my heart and i disagreed. This just wasn't a good moment, but you asked me for another chance. You wanted me to come over another day and for the first time I saw how serious you were. I agreed. Me and my girls went to party but seeing you with your friends last night; you left me confusing. Not a word, not a smile. This is killing me you know. If you only see the tears that Im crying on my pillow that doesnt compare to what you're doing to my soul. Sleeping three hours this night wasn't even worth it, but it's time to face te truth: everynight I lay awake confused, sleeping three hours while I ain't partying.

I'm not so tough

(You imagine I don't care, you see walls that just aren't there, you think I'm too strong to let you in.. well, that's just not fair: I'm not so tough, I'll call your bluff and let you see, the side me that wants you near and cries real tears and needs someone to love.)

p.s: I'm afraid of what I'll find if I get too close

secret #2:

I know I'm full of insecurities and disappointments, but I promise you there's a part of me worth keeping.